The Moments that make up Our Lives

Summer is here and it's off to a pretty good start. I've had some quality time with my friends, and some much needed deep conversations about life, love, and God. And most of all my place amongst those three. More recently, my heart has had a longing to move- to relocate. I seem to go through this every few months. But sometimes this urge is stronger than other times. This is one of those times. However, I got to thinking about WHY I find myself wanting to uproot myself and run far away. I had a conversation recently with my good friend Corey, and I think that I'm really scared to just settle. To be in one place for a long period of time. Which is ironic considering I'm now back to where I started..Nappanee. But I'm even scared to settle here. I keep thinking - is there more out there for me? Will I meet the man of my dreams if I move? Will God provide me with the skills and tools I need to be a Grief Counselor here? Or should I relocate to better accomodate? All of these thoughts run though my head and it leaves with a feeling of uneasiness to say the least. Then I wonder if it's just ME feeling uneasy, or if it's really God wanting me to make a change. Life can be confusing, unstable, and completely unpredictable. However, I just keep reminding myself that my time here on Earth is SUPPOSED to be the hard part. Heaven is the reward. So until then, I'll keep searching, keep navigating, and keep feeling uneasy - until God tells me to just settle.