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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Cry to Jesus...

For the past two weeks I've felt this need to just...cry. I'm an emotional person the way it is. But lately the smallest things have triggered big tears. Up to this point I've held them in- because most of the time they come at inappropriate times (in class, at work, times when I'm supposed to be happy..). But tonight as I sit cozy in my bed, I just want to ... let it out. As women, I think it's normal for us to have times like this where we just want to weep for the hurt that we see everyday in the world or something that was said that we took personally. I don't ever feel like I have to justify my reason for crying. However, tonight, I can't think of one single event that triggered these tears. This week has just been one of those weeks that chips away at my spirit. Cry to Jesus is what I hear in my heart. He knows exactly what triggered these tears and what keeps bringing me to this point - even if I don't know the reasons.

I started a GriefShare class tonight at church. I was a little apprehensive about doing this class, because I wasn't sure if I wanted to bring up emotions that I've buried for the past four years. But I went tonight for the first session. I think it will be a great class to not only help me with some unresolved grief that I still deal with because of the passing of Nick, but also for my future career. Thursday will be 4 years since Nick's accident. Remember to lift up his family in prayer this week.

On a brighter note - Fall is here!! Or so it felt today! It was colder today, and as I was driving I saw a few leaves fall. I love this changing season!

1 comment:

Denise said...

Hi, Michelle, Denise Harman here. I sneak into your blog through Leah’s blog and check how things are going with you from time to time. Thanks for the reminder to pray. Our family has been touched by tragedy too and we understand the necessity and value of prayer. I will be praying for not only the Mikels’ but for you too. I pray that the Lord will use your experiences to reach out and help others who have experienced the same and who need a Savior to help them through. We are told to pray for each other and I count it a privilege to pray for you.